A Green Crab's Shell | ||
by Mark Doty | ||
Not, exactly, green:
closer to bronze
preserved in kind brine,
something retrieved
from a Greco-Roman wreck,
patinated and oddly
muscular. We cannot
know what his fantastic
legs were like--
though evidence
suggests eight
complexly folded
scuttling works
of armament, crowned
by the foreclaws'
gesture of menace
and power. A gull's
gobbled the center,
leaving this chamber
--size of a demitasse--
open to reveal
a shocking, Giotto blue.
Though it smells
of seaweed and ruin,
this little traveling case
comes with such lavish lining!
Imagine breathing
surrounded by
the brilliant rinse
of summer's firmament.
What color is
the underside of skin?
Not so bad, to die,
if we could be opened
into this--
if the smallest chambers
of ourselves,
similarly,
revealed some sky.
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mark doty
Sunday, 6 January 2013
At the Gym | ||
This salt-stain spot
marks the place where men
lay down their heads,
back to the bench,
and hoist nothing
that need be lifted
but some burden they've chosen
this time: more reps,
more weight, the upward shove
of it leaving, collectively,
this sign of where we've been:
shroud-stain, negative
flashed onto the vinyl
where we push something
unyielding skyward,
gaining some power
at least over flesh,
which goads with desire,
and terrifies with frailty.
Who could say who's
added his heat to the nimbus
of our intent, here where
we make ourselves:
something difficult
lifted, pressed or curled,
Power over beauty,
power over power!
Though there's something more
tender, beneath our vanity,
our will to become objects
of desire: we sweat the mark
of our presence onto the cloth.
Here is some halo
the living made together.
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Saturday, 5 January 2013
The Embrace
You weren't well or really ill yet either;
just a little tired, your handsomeness
tinged by grief or anticipation, which brought
to your face a thoughtful, deepening grace.
I didn't for a moment doubt you were dead.
I knew that to be true still, even in the dream.
You'd been out—at work maybe?—
having a good day, almost energetic.
We seemed to be moving from some old house
where we'd lived, boxes everywhere, things
in disarray: that was the story of my dream,
but even asleep I was shocked out of narrative
by your face, the physical fact of your face:
inches from mine, smooth-shaven, loving, alert.
Why so difficult, remembering the actual look
of you? Without a photograph, without strain?
So when I saw your unguarded, reliable face,
your unmistakable gaze opening all the warmth
and clarity of you—warm brown tea—we held
each other for the time the dream allowed.
Bless you. You came back so I could see you
once more, plainly, so I could rest against you
without thinking this happiness lessened anything,
without thinking you were alive again.
The Embrace is what love symbolizes- the idea of loss not
controlling you, but letting your love take control over your loss. This poem speaks of the gratitude of
the surviving lover that he has a chance to say goodbye (albeit in a dream) to
the person he loved without reliving the grief of his dying, seeing his partner
as he was before the trauma and changes wrecked by illness. (Especially the
stresses and wasting that tends to be wrought by AIDS.). I
personally wonder if many people have had such a dream as this. The certainty
that this was only a dream and yet the eagerness to participate it. To
experience it and remember it all, to record it knowing this would be the only
contact you might ever have with this loved one.The utter peace of leaning your
head on the shoulder of the lost love, the familiar shoulder that you know in
your mind is no longer of this earth. But in your heart it is as solid as it
ever was. One last chance to experience the whole, entire person. The Embrace is one of
the best poem written by mark Doty
Friday, 4 January 2013
Culture and Social background
For a start, there were Doty's parents' almost yearly moves from one part of the country to another, common to so many corporate and military families of the era. Doty's father was an Army engineer who had to go where the work was, whether that meant building nuclear missile silos outside Tucson or rocket launching pads at Cape Canaveral.By the time Doty reached his teens, she had entered the ''long tornadic tunnel'' of alcoholism that would eventually kill her -- but not before she had inflicted some grave psychic damage on her son.Mark doty worked as a temporary office worker.After the death of his partner wally who tested HIV positive Mark Doty was in a shock and was the central event in Doty’s young life as both a person and poet. On its publication in 1987, Booklist praised the “quiet, intimate” Turtle, Swan for turning the gay experience into “an example of how we live, how we suffer and transcend suffering.”Through his different books Doty has often tried to say about the pain he suffered due to his identity. Doty’s status as detached observer to his own work was significantly complicated by his next volume, My Alexandria (1993), which won the National Poetry Series contest. Here, Doty confronts the pain of life as seen through the prism of AIDS. after Wally’s death, Doty found himself unable to write or even read. The solicitation of a poem by a friend who was editing an anthology led him to the writing, not of a poem, but of a book-length memoir, Heaven’s Coast (1996), in which he came to grips, in prose, with Wally’s life and death. “It was a real gift to be able to write it” at that troubled moment, Doty told Bing. A sense of loss pervades the volume, and death—in one form or another—is present in nearly every poem. However, poems such as “Becoming a Meadow,” “Brilliance,” and “Fog,” in which Doty chronicles his and Roberts's fateful tests for HIV, Doty draws as much attention to the joys of life as the sadness of its parting.
Tuesday, 11 December 2012
Mark Doty
Mark Doty-Poet
Born on 10 August 1953,Doty was
born in Maryville, Tennessee, earned his
Bachelor of Arts from Drake University in Des Moines, Iowa, and received his Master of Fine Arts in creative writing from Goddard College in Vermont. He has described himself as having been “a sissy”; frightened by his emerging sexual identity, he married hastily at age eighteen 1989. His partner Wally Roberts tested positive for HIV, which drastically changed Doty's writing. Roberts's death in 1994 inspired Doty to write Atlantis. Heaven's Coast: A Memoir also deals with this subject and received the PEN/Martha Albrand Award for First Nonfiction. In 1995, he was the first American poet to win the £10,000 T.S. Eliot Prize for Poetry, for his book My Alexandria. The book was also a finalist for the National Book Award and the winner of the 1993 Los Angeles Times Book Prize for Poetry and the National Book Critics Circle Award. Doty also received a 1994 Whiting Writers' Award. He has written twelve books of poetry and three memoirs. He lives in New York City and Fire Island, New York. He was the John and Rebecca Moores Professor in the graduate program at The University of Houston Creative Writing Program. He has also participated in The Juniper Summer Writing Institute at the University of Massachusetts Amherst's MFA Program for Poets & Writers and was on the faculty of the Bread Loaf Writers' Conference in August 2006. He is the inaugural judge of the White Crane/James White Poetry Prize for Excellence in Gay Men's Poetry.
He now teaches at Rutgers
University. His husband since 1995 is the writer Paul Lisicky.
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